I am back for real this time.  Or at least I think so—at least a little while.  I have missed you!  I have missed processing this journey called life with you.  Really, I have missed processing at all.  Life seems to get so crazy busy and I just run out of time, or plan poorly, or get lazy.  Or maybe all of the above.

Anyway, I was moved this morning as I was reflecting on something I read in Jesus Calling (a devotional book by Sarah Young).  I love the little kernels of truth she offers in daily doses. Today’s truth focus was from 2 Cor. 12:9–a timely reminder for me that His power is made perfect in my weakness.  I love how she paraphrases it especially, “Rejoice in your insufficiency, knowing that My power is made perfect in weakness.”

It is easy for me to gravitate toward focusing on my insufficiency–whether my personality or body-shape flaws, or those material things I lack–a fancy car, maid-service, personal trainer and short order chef.  (If any of you are interested in filling one or more of those roles, let me know.  The salary offers a plethora of zeroes, with lots of commas, following a zero.)

But in my most recent past–as in about 2-4 weeks–I have been focusing very intentionally on God’s SUFFICIENCY. It is not about what I lack, it is about who He is. There are some specific situations in our life where He will HAVE to do something.  Our need is so far outside the realm of possibility for us, and my own inadequacy is so great, that I am in a place of utter dependence on the Lord.  We all are.  All the time.  We just often don’t remember that as we foolishly, time and again, fall into the trap of believing self-sufficiency actually exists.

So for now, I truly will rejoice in my inadequacy.  As an American, I am overly blessed–probably even spoiled–and rarely encounter my need for God in such a crystal clear way.  So today, I will embrace my awareness of my inadequacy for what it is, “a rich blessing, training me to rely wholeheartedly on God” (Young, p.125)